Sunday 15th May 2016

Had a seriously long lie-in, felt brilliant. Got up at 11.30am and felt great, refreshed, and then got on with some work - catching up on emails, went to release '50 Ways...' digitally and then changed my mind and now I'm very much sat on the fence with it. See, financially releasing it through the site I've found it's okay because there's no upfront fee, but the cut they take is ridiculous. In short; we'd sell it for £3 a time, and I'd get about half of that...or I could just put it on YouTube and get more hits which may benefit my career? I don't know! I don't want to just give it away, yet equally if I'm only gonna make a tenner a month from it would I be better off just making it a free thing in the hope an industry bod sees it?

Claudia's designed some nice artwork for the musical...she's really good at it, you know, which is handy to know.

Evening solo show in Wisbech. I was worried about this one; this is the one where I had to audition a couple weeks back. I didn't like the vibe on arrival, but it was bloody lovely, you know. My mate Rob supported me and shouldn't be a support act - he's been around a lot longer but was very humble and our shows worked well together. Due to the fact the event was overrunning I had to cut my set short by 10 minutes and it threw me completely...I was starting threads that didn't have a meaning. The audience, though, were with me all the way - so nice.

There was points tonight - especially the intro, where there was a sense of confidence in the room, that they were watching a class act. Even the rap was strong. And then there were points were I clearly got a bit lost. And then Ginsters/crying scene was really, really strong tonight and people were actually crying with laughter. Then it all dipped again. This can be a great show, but at the moment it's a nice, 3 star, free fringe show...like I have been for about 2 years. It's easy to get fooled when an audience like you...that doesn't always mean it's a winning show. I know where I'm at, and I know I can just be a bit better at this.