Yeah, I think I am turning boring. I feel a bit anxious today about it all, not sure why. Well, okay I guess it's simple: I've written a bunch of lovely monologues, 11 of them, have approached the five actors needed (it's two each, I'll do the spare one), three have got back to me saying they'd do it but, having sent them the scripts over a day ago, I've not heard anything back since.
My fear is simple: this isn't a great script. I really, really like it...it's not a major departure from what I normally do, but the characters have warmth and depth and I think the dialogue is very naturalistic. But two of the three actors are only actors I've met at the fringe this year and all they know is Little Sparks and whatever solo show of mine they saw. Maybe this sort of stuff isn't for them? Or maybe, it just isn't very good? Not being arrogant or anything, but I was just expecting a little more enthusiasm about the script in return as I've spent longer on these than I have on many other projects.
Also a bit anxious about my right eye, which is doing strange things. The eyelid is, at least. When I Googled it all manner of scary things about cancer came up, but when I saw an eye specialist (who just happens to be the mum of one of my students) on Monday she was quite relaxed and told me it was simply lack of vitamin C. I've had the cream on for three days now and it still looks a bit...well, black. I'm sure she's right, she is the expert after all but I feel a bit, well, even uglier with an eye like this.
Also, feeling anxious because I am clearly turning boring. Thursday is typically a nice day for me - no teaching until 4pm, so plenty of time to write during the day. What did I to today? I did my tax return, over two months before the deadline! I would write, but maybe nobody thinks I'm a good writer because maybe the Christmas stuff is shit?
Either way, good to get it done and paid for.
I know I have much to be grateful for, really...this time last year I was swimming in my overdraft and struggling big style. I'm comfortable now. This time last year I hadn't even taught a private drum lesson yet - that was on 30th November 2017, a student who I still teach weekly and is one of my favourites. I've got my life in shape. I've sold two of my 'become a drummer in a day' courses - if I sell 20 of those over the next 8 months and keep the money aside, it will totally pay for my Edinburgh Fringe 2019 including accommodation.
Today was fine, I did boring life admin, then taught 2 cracking drum lessons with 2 cracking students and then went to a cracking Thanksgiving meal around Lachy's parents' house - great food in very fine company. Maybe being a grownup isn't so bad, after all?
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